Let me see, where shall I begin? Well the other night I was talking to my brother in law about our childhood daze and the distance that exists betwix my father and myself. Let me give a little back ground on the situation B4 I go on. My brother-in-law has known my popz for 24 years and thinks he can do no wrong. Well I have known my dad since I was born and I happen to know much differently!! I understand that no man is currently perfect on this circle we call Earth, but then again what the world needs now is LoVe-sweet-LoVe, its the only thing that there is 2 little of. My father is from the old school where spending quality time with your son playing ball, having an encouraging talk or just saying proudly to a friend "This is my son" is passe'. My dad was not abusive with me, he just seemed aloof and non-caring unless other people were around, then he would laugh and talk and be the life of the party. I was like who is this dude? I appreciated having a male figure in the home, because he worked everyday, kept the lights on, food on the table and a new car or two in the driveway. So for that much I owed him respect. But like I said, my dad was emotionless and it drove a wedge between us, that exists to this day. In fact we rarely speak. Most of my family thinks I am the one who should break this craziness because I am his son?? From my perspective, I don't make excuses for anything. I have to make a way out of no way!(Didn't P.Diddy told you that).I don't recall being asked to be born, therefore my Dad really owes me the shirt off his back? But still I want nothing but form him and quite comfortable with not speaking. Cats in the cradle, ya feelz me? I still would do anything in the world to assit my Dad, but I won't come to him and apologize to him for being a ghost Dad to me. Basically that was the topic with my brother-N-law. He thinks I should man up and close the gap. Ha! I laugh at him. I will say this upon ending. Parents must realize that kids are a gift from our creator. Show you love them often by words and actions. Never let much time go by that you allow uncertainty creep into your relationship. And know that being a parent is the greatest thankless job that a person can ever have. I know I love my kids, and if swallowing my pride to keep my thang with my shorties strong is all that is needed....boom-baby its done.
I ain't the 1.....I am just da Ward....
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