I will be the first person to admit that I never wanted kids! I really did not see any reason why I should have any because I just wanted to travel the world and take in all that our creator has given mankind. O.k., maybe I just felt like I wasn't parent material. I recall my mother always being there for me, coming to school functions, watching me play basketball, teaching me and all my friends how to drive, helping me when I was sick, teaching me about the value of a dollar and so much more. Never thought I could do it. Of course I had a father there too, but he often worked two jobs and seldom had time to speak with me about anything. If he did talk it was usually to discipline me. I can't recall one time that we sat down and just had a normal conversation about my goals, my day or life. Dang I may need professional help now that I think about it? Yeah, I just knew having kids would be the thing "not" for me!
I recall speaking with a plumber friend of mine back in the day and he told me that he understood that I never wanted kids but Jehovah may have other plans for me in that area. He felt I was a good person who some kids could really respect-love and look up to. I never for got that conversation, sure I thought he was crazy, but sincere. Thank you Mr. Scott.
Fast forward to 2010 and notice I have two daughters who love me to death and I love them back. Many times we sit and watch comedy clips after school while waiting on dinner and then react the funny parts over! We laugh and laugh. We talk about each others day as we eat dinner and talk about future plans. I basically learned that loving someone other than myself isn't hard, it just takes patience and a caring attitude. I think I learn more from them than they can ever learn from me! I watch them roll on the floor and they play, do their homework, fight and be madd at each other. Funny thing about that is, that always remain friends. These simple acts taught me we can't expect others to always make the choices or moves we would have made and we can't always be right. One thing we can control is our actions. I have never once saw my kids hold a grudge against a family member or stop speaking talking someone for over 20 minutes. They just got too much to talk about huh?
Hearing the girls laughter makes me laugh because I know they don't know the prejudices of the world, the pain of their first love and the sadness of losing a loved one. They are happy! Why shouldn't they be, they are at a point in life where they are not jaded by the world but reflecting what is positive in it as we all should do.
With that being said, I like being a parent- not that I am perfect at it- but it is a privilege and blessing from our creator. I am sure there will be days when I will almost hate them -lol, but no matter what, we gonna get through it together with big kool-aid smiles on our faces!!! I know there many people that can relate to my experiences so this blog is for you too!
Live in the moment, leave the negativity for the negative people and always tell and show your kids how much you love them.
I am Ward........
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