I can't put into words what I want to say yet, so I wrote a poem.....

Well i am no expert on poems, but I will give it the old college try cuz this love/dating thing that my female friends keep saying is really frying my mind. So let me jot down this poem today and the reason for the poem tomorrow -lol!

The only solution to the problem...

Men Are Stupid, Women Are Crazy

Why not admit,

The reality,

That male/female unions,

Breed lunacy.



Men have no clue.

Women are insane.

Men never get "it".

Women cast blame.



Battle of the sexes?!

Please!!! Let's be real!

Men misunderstand,

Women are surreal.



How hard can it be,

You can listen to others or take it from me,

Men - don't expect reason- we are expected to see it coming!

Women - are great catches in they own mind-even when they slummin!



So simple the answer,

To this solution we seek,

Find contentment w/o sex,

And choose not to speak!

Real talk: Women are crazy.....and men don't make them that way!

I am WarD

Thurrrrsssdaze

The day I had 2day was surreal. I usually don't like to reflect on my day so soon like this, but since I was sitting at the computer playing with my Ipod, I just figured why the heck not OVER SHARE with my peoplez! O.k. this is how it all began...I hit the snooze 3 times before I woke up because I stayed up too late, the previous night before- watching Meet the Browns (Mr. Brown is funny-lol). Well eye somehow managed to drag my self into the shower to quickly wake up because I turned the water waaaay to hot! Who needs to zestfully clean when you can be hotter than two fat men in a used smart car! Well I headed out to teach at some new elementary school and got there 15 minutes late. Yeah they was blowing up my phone looking for me. I got stuck with the class from....well just use your imagination. These little 4th graders were so off the chains that I had to pull up the classified add on my black berry right then and there. I know they say it starts at home, but the kids gotta have some accountability in their actions as well. One little boy told me he didn't do his home work the night before because he plays football for another school (4th graders don't even play football)and then that sucka had a straight melt down. He started yelling and screaming because he said the entire class stole his pencil!! I am unsure if he could even write in the first dog gone place. Anyway, the rest of the day wasn't to much better. It was a lot of yelling and cussing and crying but I had to pull it together because my break was over so I stopped and went back to class!!!!!! The teacher of my class leaned over and told me that she has to go out and smoke cigarettes in her car every chance as she ran from the class smirking at me! Some how 3:15 came and I went over my boyz Jamie house to get my speakers put in my 300 and stereo. Its was cool until a cop stopped a lady who was tring to buy crack with an out dated license plate. She pulled up by my car and the cop saw 5 brothas standing there and decided to let her go. She didn't even have a drivers license or insurance with expired plates. So the lady comes over to my car and asked me to loan her fifty cents for her crack purchase???? I was blown away. Next another 50 year old crack head run out in the street cussing out some 14 year old boy who didn't pay for his sexual favor she gave him?!? 6 cop cars showed up and called the patty wagon and they arrested her as she cussed out the entire apartment complex. Finally Jamie finished and I went to K mart to get me some Burritos and Talipia. I got there and saw how these folks was dressed and decided that I should just keep moving and not thinking. I got home checked emails, cooked dinner, watched some Martin, played with the iPod, blogged and waited for the girls to get home from Gymnastics. We talked about our day (not me so much) and headed to the shower and back to bed to get ready to do it all over again. What did I learn today you ask? That if children are tomorrows leaders, I am not looking forward 2 that! Tonight- I am gonna pray for everybody and everything so at the minimum I will feel better...
I am WaRd.....

That darn KatTt.....

Why is it that animal lovers are serious about just that.....being an ANIMAL LOVERz??? I mean ya boi Wardy loves animals too-well maybe dogs and gold fish but you know you what eye mean sucka. Anyway, I was sitting here watching the news today and saw how this older woman went to the trash can outside and discarded her trash and her nosey cat followed and jumped right up on the can to watch and the lady stroked that kat a few times and smoothly pulled that Jedi move and picked the unsuspecting kat up by the neck and threw that sucker in the trash and closed the lid? I was like what the freak? The ironic thing here was that someone was recording the whole incident. Of course the authorities are upset and they are either looking for the lady or trying to figure out how to charge her with something. I really was listening that hard. But I was shocked that no one cares that this woman was being ((recorded)) isn't that some form of invasion of privacy...... wait the kat was ummm trapped in the trash can for 14 hours, so I guess that trumps everything else right?
Well, I know that place where I work PRN has a Kat Koncern too. They actually feed this Kat and he shows up daily like he punching a clock at his freaking job. The Kat has somehow mistaken me as some one who cares about it. For example, I open the front door and there he is. He don't even meow, the Kat says "What up G"... I close the door and he walks to the back patio like "what you do that for and where is my milk". Don't let me try to walk to my car. The entire trip involves the Kat trying to rub against my leg. I think (((NOT))) on that. But nevertheless, my co-workers seem to really enjoy feeding a stay Kat.
I guess I have mixed emotions about feeding animals like that because it makes everyone responsible- I have kids and ain't trying to get more responsibility. Besides we all know what happened to Michael Vick! Less stress is best for me. I guess majority rules here. To add insult 2 injury, I hear Lindsay Lohan is getting released early from Jail. I guess they need the extra room to put the cat dumper in jail for the more serious crime huh--I gotta go get the milk out, my Kat is here....
I am Ward........

a TimE 2 kEEp QUIET and a Time 2 SpEakKKk....

I must say that this summer has truly been enlightening to me for a myriad of reasons especially since I am still learning about people, my own life, family and friends. I don't think I know everything nor do I want to, mainly because I am happy being a student of the game! So this is what I had the privilege of absorbing this week; Ya know that old saying we hurt the one's we love the most....well sometimes that hurt can be so painful that scars may last a life time. In fact I have often struggled with wondering if forgiveness meanz forgetting? (Yes I found the answer, but that's for a later blog-lol!) Well I over heard someone speaking to another person in such an offensive manner- that I wanted to say something, but I SMH and moved on. The scriptures encourage all to "Let your/my utterance be always with graciousness, seasoned with salt" because this type of speech is essential to good communication.
So my mind began to wrap around this admonishment and why the need was ever warranted? But as I sit here in a pensive state I actually get it!!! When imperfect people start venting anger w/o concern for the consequences ((can and does)) cause serious damage to our own and others emotional and physical health. The ironic thing is that we seldom see ourselves as others often do. We may have the best of intentions to express to someone how we are feeling based off what they have done to offend us or why we are upset for any reason, but what sometimes comes out is a flurry of obscenities and hurtful words! After we have unloaded our feelings on to the other person, the cycle continues and of course they respond-react or with draw. I guess that is why they say "Act like a fool and get treated like one". I am not oblivious to the fact that it is easy to underestimate the impact that our words, facial expressions, and body language have on others, still I wish they would get classes in High School on how to treat others- that you must pass in order to graduate!!
Knowing when and how to say things to others is also important especially if we are offended. If we speak too soon we may just blast out some words that are not well thought out and waiting too long and they other person may not remember or even care that they hurt you. Its a balancing act for the ages. If not checked we may carry about certain amounts of hate for certain people and rationalize it in our mindz. We may say I got 5lbs of hate for Jody and 4lbs of hate for Marcus and so on. its really silly when you think about it. Is it that hard to know when it a time to keep quiet and a time to speak. Its just a matter of making sure our brains are engaged before our mouths start running-right? At the end of the day, no matter who hurts/offends us, we should strive to forgive them or move past it. We have all hurt or said somethings that others had to forgive us too. I am really trying to focus on why people do or say the things that they do to better deal with my people.
Again, I am a student of life and I am reflecting back on what I learned that week. I am still standing...for now..
I am Ward....

The well known American gal vs. The Asian culture........no contest suckers.....

So I was parlaying at the cribb today trying to get some much needed sleep with the t.v. on (Not a suggested move) the Tyra show. The topic centered around men and their interracial love affair with Asian women. I tried to sleep but the points were so good, my brain traded sleep for curiosity-lol! I understand Tyra need to have controversy to keep this show moving, so she kept digging at the men who loved the Asian women. I felt like she wanted the men to say that all women are the same and it was ((them)) who treated them differently! I was proud of the men because they stood their ground to Wendy Williams Jr!
The men basically were saying that culture and up bringing of Asian women is that of submission, not a a door mat, but to respect the man as the head of the house and her life in a loving way. (Hey that is in the Bible... but neva mind that) It wasn't anything negative that I saw, but the women in the audience sure had the opposite perspective! They was talking about how women need to be heard and not taken advantage of and must be respected as an equal partner.Again, the men said it was their preference....end of story! I must admit I have to agree that--- it is personal choice!!! Just like I don't like Chocolate Ice cream, who cares???
It is no secret that I say "Women are karzee and men don't make them that way", but the show did make me ponder about how my brothers really feel about women in general?
At the end of the day, Men want to come home to a clean house, hot meal, well behaved children and a loving mate! I mean really is that too much to freaking ask? Of course I am talking about a man who puts God first in his life! Yet and still even the hardest thug can still benefit from a good woman.
Seems like the roles in society have changed from when I was a kid. More women are in the work force and away from home and when they get home they ain't trying to cater to no hard ankle. They want what the men folk want......quiet and relaxing time. Men can't expect the woman to earn half the bread and do all the house work-lol! Yeah, its got to be balance and communication for the perfect woman to come to reality!
Speaking of the perfect woman. Well, there ain't none! Period. However, there are a lot of good women who know what men want and need and make it happen. I tend to agree that the Asian woman do this better than most, but the men who have it don't appreciate it always, but those who do... will kill for they women. Women here is some free Wardy advice. Communicate with your dude, ask him how was his day and what you can do to make his life easier. Be swift about hearing and slow about speaking,give him affection and encouragement and don't talk crazy with your friend backed crazy theories about his choices or actions and finally tell him how you feel and what is on your mind!
Oh snap I gotta go, I see May ling coming with my warmed bath robe and peeled grapes!
I am WaRd.....

Age ain't nothing but a number sucka!

"Why would a man want to date a women 10 or 12 years older than him?" Actually, younger men have been attracted to older women for a long time, it's just that today these couples are not keeping it a secret anymore. Here is what some of these "younger men" have said about dating a woman 10 to 12 or more years older than them. Some young men are attracted to an older woman's maturity and the fact that older women seem more comfortable with themselves. Older women have lived more and are more established; they can take care of themselves and don't rely on a man to take care of them. Younger men are attracted to the fact that older women act more mature and seem to be less materialistic than younger women. Mature women don't mess with their heads and play mind games with them, acting coy and shy one minuet, the next minuet mouthing off and being bossy, showing her true self.
The mature woman of today is not looking for the picket fence and the two car family, especially if she has already spent her earlier years doing just that, so not too many older women are looking to have more babies. However, if she has never been married and is ready to start a family, she may find a younger man with a less-developed career who would be willing to follow her and be a stay-at-home-dad. For the most part, younger men find older women more interesting and fun to talk to. They find that their older girlfriends are more experimental and eager to try new things and to go to different places. Whatever the reasons may be, younger men are dating older women because they want to. There isn't any one reason for younger men dating older women. It could be a combination of many reasons. Maybe trying to put an explanation to it is a waste of time. Men and women are getting together and dating, when two people get together and find out they both have a lot in common and they like being together, why should they let a little thing like age break them up? Life is hard enough as it is, when two people find happiness with each other, who's business is it anyway? Age should have nothing to do with two people being happy.
My cousin recently informed that the new lover they have is 17 years older! Both are quite happy and really progressing nicely. Hummm, I have dated older women myself and found personally that the peace and calmness was oddly refreshing. I think I was worried about her family more so than age....it is what it is...
I am WaRd......

Kommunication

“There is a sacredness in tears. They are not the mark of weakness, but of power. They speak more eloquently than ten thousand tongues. They are messengers of overwhelming grief...and unspeakable love.” With that being said the ironic thing is that da single biggest problem in communication is the illusion that it has taken place.”

I am WaRd.....

Mixxxed emotions and corn bread sandwichs on monkey wings....

Its funny how many times I listen to how others feel about love-life and relationships and yet find that the common thread is how truly lonely ((WE)) all are! The old saying is the grass is greener on the other side is what most say, but is that really the case? I don't really think so, but hey who am I besides the pain in your left thigh!
Some say "If I were single I would travel the world and do what ever I wanted with out any worries", then again some say "If I were married I would be so much happier with my career, family and life". Perhaps both are correct- or then again could it be that we are all shaped by our past experiences? Life is short and forces us to grow up fast or die slow. Wardy says "dance like no one is watching (and if they are so what) love with all your heart and ask for nothing in return and don't worry about being hurt by Mixxxed emotions and corn bread sandwichs on monkey wings.... I came up with a little poem for all the mixed emotion people out there. It ain't perfect but it is what I think.....

My heart and mind
Are intertwined
So much confusion
So little time.

I want to stay
I want to go
Too much to think about
Too much to feel and know.

When I am with you-I always laugh
When void of you I feel the urge to cry
Sometimes I say I hate you
That's A huge lie.

Been known to change my mind and I am wishy washy
I go back back and fourth fourth
I am a work in progress or so I claim
after weeks apart I still call your name....
I am WaRd......

Here is what is on my mind this week.......

*Why did so many people get mad at Lebron James for choosing to play basketball in Miami? I mean doesn't he have the option to play for any team that is willing to pay him? Isn't that what all the other players in the league does? Look how many teams Shaq has played for! I guess it really comes down to the slave took his cotton picking skills on down the road to make another plantation owner rich!

*I am thinking about young people just don't get how important life is. I watched some skate boarders jump off a rail at a park the other day. I am guessing they never saw those shows where the kids break out all they teefff!

*Why is family the very ones who tear you down? Geez, Jesus said a prophet is unhonored in his own home town. Wouldn't it be great if everyone was support and loving....nahh that would be too much like right!

*How can people continue to have cigarettes as a habit when its $50 per carton. Heck I dread thinking about going to get gas at the gas station, I cant afford to kill myself by smoking.

*How come people change every 7 years. Especially when you got kids involved and you all disagree. It can get ugly really quick. I guess the bigger person does the right thing.

*It seems like the person who makes sense is the last one to get taken seriously and the crack head around the corner gets everyone attention just by riding his bike backwards in a circle- while the man in the suit is saying read this AWAKE cuz the end is near-gets the finger????

*Where the heck does all the time in a day go?

*Do you really need to be married or is it cool to be like Lebron and just have kids and live with your woman. Do you think he creepin on her?

*Why do people eat mushrooms. I can't tell poison ones from the good ones besides they look like they taste like rubber (yeah I ate rubber before, I grew up very poor-lol)

*What's love got to do with it......besides everything?

*I think they really wanted Micheal Jackson dead. He was worth more that way.....

*Why do people spend so much time in secular churches and then show absolutely no signs of being a positive person?

I am just saying.....I am Ward......

Honestly-honesty is honorable if your honest....unlike me...

Honesty we all deserve it
We need to get rid of our bitterness
Tenderness and trust we need to offer each other
Because our lives for the past years was in chaos
Yes I do blame myself for it
In all honesty it is my entire fault
You see I have my faults too just like you have yours
I try to make things look good but only on paper
But in reality it is all a mess
In honesty I try hard to please both of us
But I don't know how to
Maybe I just can't face all of our troubles?
Maybe I am just believing it is all right when it is not?
In honesty I am being a fool
And I am fooling you also
In all honesty why can't I see that you want the best for me?
In all honesty why do I go and bang my head against the wall?
It won't change a thing
It was because I believed that it would do
But it doesn't do it!!!
In honesty it is a lie I am telling myself
Honesty is in the making
Honesty is not my best policy
Honesty came over us
We are not the people we used to be
We don't seem to laugh and smile much any more
Like we did 10 years a go
In honesty I can't say that we will be here tomorrow
Because If I do I would be stupid
Anything can happened to us tomorrow
In honesty I can say that we don't know the time, the date, and the hour
That we will die
Because the only person who knows that is Jehovah
Honesty is not a lovely word for us
Honesty is the word that causes us pain and heartaches
In honesty sometimes we feel lost in our thoughts and in our world
In honesty sometimes we even feel lost without words to say to each other
In honesty sometimes a moment of silence can be all we need
In honesty we can't live without support from friends
In honesty sometimes we feel very emotional
In honesty it is not good for us to hang on to negative thoughts
Because this is what destroy us and make room for Satan
In honesty we need love and that is easier said than done...
In honesty we need to show to each other that we care about each Other
In honesty
In honesty we are not at peace
In honesty it is hard to know what love is if we never had from Somebody
In honesty the night arrived and is here to stay
In honesty trust we must have for each other
In honesty we must have feelings for each other
In honesty why can't we show our feeligs for each other?
Is it wrong to show it?
What are we afraid of?
In honesty I don't want to love or be hurt again by love!
In honesty I found my soul mate -but honestly she doesnt know it- no chinn
I am WarD.....