I guess I really didn't know you at all......

I thought about an old friend today. I knew her for many years and we shared many memories together. In fact we had a tradition of spending every New Years together for at least 5 years. This friend was so special to me that we shared everything together. We laughed, cried, prayed and stayed together. I can honestly say I loved this woman.
Obviously we never did marry for a plethora of reasons,none of which I understood. Perhaps it was timing and at other times it was selfishness on both of our parts. Don't get it twisted, this beauty did get married during our friendship -but it ended abruptly. I still loved her and subconsciously waited for her because I knew that situation would not work.
See my friend had issues with being independent and self sufficient. She needed to have someone to belong to. My boy "thickness" said "a bad relationship beats no relationship". I guess he was right??
Looking back over the years, I guess I lost some tears= time after time I said this time I am gonna win, but another fight and things weren't right and I guess I lost again, so I had to let it go. Wait.....those are the words to a song, my bad, but what the heck it applicable-lol!
My friend, where ever you are, I just wanted you to know that on this day, I thought about you and wanted you to know that I am doing good and I wish you the best too. I am comfortable in my skin and appreciate all the life lessons you taught me. But looking back, I guess I really didn't know you at all......

I be that Ward.....