My weekend

Wow it is hard to believe it but its Monday again!! But I must say that I had a long weekend and it was positive for the most part. I lost an aunt to death, but I know she is at peace now. But getting past that, I was able to get my van issues fixed and it only cost me $160. That left me more than enough money to go on my long over due shopping speee at the local dollar store.

I took some time out to think about my life and feelings about love. I sometimes over look human need for love. A question wuz once asked - do you fall in love or with the ideal of being in love? My answer has undoubtedly- neither!! You can not color a thought or taste an emotion. By that I mean, love has its own agenda. You just don't look at someone and say "Hey I am gonna fall in love with them." It is what it is.

Perhaps you get to know a work mate, a person at your place of worship or just meet at the grocery store on a Friday night? From there the curiosity grows like a moth to a flame. The stages I think are "like", "infatuation", "love" and finally "in love". But it is a tricky dance. Little words or actions can completely destroy it all- ya know what hard efforts you put in. So when I say I love someone, I mean it. Like many individuals who have been bruised by love-I am a guarded person and nobody wants to be hurt- or do they?

I am a student of love with a lot to learn. I can only try to please my partner, but at least she will know .......that I am in the class and making good grades...lol...

I am Ward..

Wards Marriage dream in the Fantasy Jungle

"Love has no other desire but to fulfill itself.
To wake at dawn with a winged heart and give thanks to another day of loving.
To rest at the noon hour and meditate love's ecstasy;
To return home eventide with gratitude, and then sleep with a prayer
For the beloved in your heart and a song of praise upon your lips."
When you love someone, you do not love them all the time, in exactly the same way, from moment to moment. That is impossible. It is even a disservice to pretend it is possible. Yet that is what most of us demand. We have such little faith in the ebb and flow of life and of love and of relationships.
We leap forward at the flow of the tide and resist in terror its ebb, for we are afraid it will never return. We insist on permanence, on duration, on continuity. But the only continuity possible in life, as in love, is in growth, in fluidity and in freedom, as dancers are free, barely touching as they pass, but partners in creating the same pattern.
Ward(says to wifey)
There was darkness for a long time and then there was light, and that light was you. Your love has given me wings, and our journey begins today. I pledge before this assembled company to be your husband from this day forward. Let us make of our two lives one life. I want you for today, tomorrow, and forever.
Wifey(says to Wardy)
I have dreamed each day.my whole life of having someone as wonderful as you love me the way you do. I give myself to you as your wife, and I promise here to treasure for all of my days the love we celebrate today. Let us bring together our lives and find ourselves anew!

( I dedicate this blog to the women of Pace-Oar. Thank you)

(fast forward 5 years and see this couple on divorce court, lol....)

I am ward....

How to spot a good man

Many people who want to be a part of my book....."Women are crazy or do Men make them that way, often tell me that they now know how to spot a good man. I, being a man, find that fact very interesting for a plethora of reasons. Anyway, this is what I was told.
1). The man who has nice clean shoes on supposedly cares about his appearance because any body can put on a run down pair of kicks and go about life.
2). You can tell a lot about the car a man drives. It has been said that a mid life crisis can result in getting a bright red sports car or a rich man may drive a tan mini van. You don't have to drive a BMW to show you have class!!
3). What type of dwelling place does the man have or desire to have. If he has a tiny one bedroom apartment but its clean, then he respect his space and so should you. If he has pizza crumbs all over the floor and roaches that walk around with footies on may not be the best look for you. (Wardy suggests moving past this dude)
4). Finally the type of woman that the man wants tells you volumes about his character. If he likes strippers, he may be a freak, if he likes quiet women he may be that brother who wants seeks peace and if he wants a lady in the street and freak in the sheets he may be me, lol!
Well I am unsure about this list but I will leave it up to the readers to critique me on the follow up. ((By the way, I hate New Yorkers)).

I am warD!

That is unfair or Why me

Let me share a personal story with you that was very painful for me to experience. It was a few years back when I was working a full and part time job while attending college full time and did I mention being a full time parent of two young daughters!!! I lived in a 2 bedroom apt on Shadeland ave in the ghetto. My whip at the time was a blue mini van. Yes my life was hectic and in constant turmoil to put it mildly.
Here is the thing that hurt my heart. I knew that light was at the end of my tunnel once I got that darn college degree because I promise I was 30 cents from having a quarter back in them days. I had no family in Indianapolis so I had to depend on myself 100%. My apt had no renters insurance because I was suppose to post up on the 3rd floor but I was switched at the last moment during move in time and straight forgot to get the renters protection. But check it, I requested that maintenance come place locks on my windows--ONLY WHEN i WAS AT HOME!!!. Needless to say they came and moved my items out of the apt and then locked the door back. I mean they took my clothes, computer, shoes, barber equipment and even took my bible?? I was so upset because getting robbed is a hopeless feelings. Similar to loosing a loved one in death. There ain't nothing you can do. I wanted to scream to the world, "That is unfair or Why me--- but who really cared besides me. More importantly why shouldn't it have been me.
I mean I did not want to get robbed but I lost material items, I still have my life and kids were not harmed. I just learned that I should have paid a little more coin and have an up graded dwelling spot. It could have been worse or it could have been totally someone else. I choose to hold my head up and keep moving forward and be thankful 4 what I had. It was very hard -but it was the best decision I made during that time. I since got that coveted Business/Communication Bachelors degree, had a new home built and got several nice whips. My point is this....the way situations start out is how they end. Example: If you are yelling at someone from the jump-when yall walk away, you are still yelling. In my case, if I kept holding on to getting robbed, I may still be in the hood screaming Why me, but instead I am writing this blog that you are reading. You feelz me? Besides, you know I loves you. So quit "your" complaining because life happens whether you deserve it or not, Karma don't live on the East side, "BUT" reality has a nice piece of real estate in the game of life with a great big flashy FOR SALE sign in the front yard, dont worry if you can't afford it cause because it has budgets for eeerbody.....

Eye am WARd......

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Once again another week-end has come and gone but ya boi had to get on the golf course on do his thugg-thizzle! I figured that Tiger Woods is gonna be down for a minute with bum knee so this might be my chance to make it happen-lol!
N-T-Way, I am doing this 2day conference for my job and its very interesting seeing all the people. Monday started out with a priest talking about how he gets paid all this money but gives it all to charity (I guess that means he gets free Steak house burgers from Burger King) and how he use to be in law enforcement and a variety of other fields. He then offered a prayer to God, Allah, Yahweh and whom ever else he could come up with. Well the temperature in the room was about negative 80 below zero so I thought it could not get much worse until the next speaker stepped up to the mic and started talking about how lucky his clients were that he is so educated and how he doesn't tell them how travels to conferences around the world like this to bore the @#*$ out of people like me.......
I am sorry I went off on a tangent again. Let me just say this, The weekend was a strong change from the work day......Ya feels me no doubt.
I am Ward...

The session

I recently met with a group of friends, three guys and three gals and of course the topics quickly migrated toward relationships. I am always fascinated to hear different prospectives on issues when it comes to the sexes.
It seems that women want that romance and men want that sex. Each sydes seems to have very valid points, at the same time I realize that most couples don't spend much time in communication exercises and not nearly enough time spending time (quality alone. Once kids enter into the focus, the whole dating experience has to change or you or your mate will!
I also gathered that women are bigger liars than men. It is almost safe to say that men lie stupidly (if there is such a word). Example, a man may desire to go to the strip club but tell his lady that he is going to Bob's house to vent for a while. The woman on the other hand may say something like " I AM HAVING YOUR BABY"!! Dare I say- The Maury Povich Show????? I think not.....
Don't get it twisted, a lie is a lie, but some lies are bigger and harder to forgive and forget.
I guess for me, time getting to know my mate is crucial, but I understand that life keeps us constantly moving forward or else we get far behind. But still, I implore you, take time to give time to those you like, love or want to love......

Yall know what this is.......I am ward....of kourse....

Wednesday was field service day for me and the girls (a time that we choose 2 talk about the scriptures with folks). We had a great time even though we did not actually go out, we visited a sick sister in Wishard hospital. She was so happy to see friendly faces coming to pay her a surprise visit. My kids were like "why do we have to see sick people". Ah yes, the young people have so many questions, but the intentions are well meaning.
After that we came home and rode our bikes in the hood. That was actually fun because my kids are fascinated by so many things I take for granted. They just had to stop and look at this stray kitten. I obliged and then we were off again to survey the land. I saw people cutting their yards, washing their cars and enjoying life. Yes- today was a good day.
Back home I grabbed a juicy apple or two and we sat in the loft and watched a comedy video. O.k. I know I am a square but hey, it takes all types to make the world go around.

Eye am Da Ward