You acting brand new.......................

I use to think that Jesus was actually born on December 25th that is until I accidentally looked for it in the Bible one day,lol. Guess what? It wasn't in there- even to this day, but that hasn't stop millions of suckers from saying other wise, does it? I use to think that Police were my friends in blue that always looked out for me and minez, but now I keep seeing everyone wearing T-shirts that scream..... "I can't breathe", go figure. I use to think that 1+1=2, that is until I had my first daughter (Kobe'), then I realized that 1+1=3 lol!
Any-who, have you ever wondered why whenever one of them hood rappers start getting some money from their constant dedication to the craft, that they move out in the hills of Cali? I mean, shouldn't they stay where they came from and help revolutionize the ghetto from wince they came? The other man wasn't that dude meeting you at the barbershop or swap meet to purchase your home made album was he? That pretty much makes Jay Z, 50 cent and Dr. Dre sell outs to the highest degree or could it mean that nothing changes unless something changes. I guess yall don't know what happen somebody get money in the hood and the rest of the streets are still hungry???
It has been said many times that people change their perspective once every seven years during their lives and if they don't change, I assure you that growth is severely lacking in those people. I never claimed to be a complete know it all, but I know I can reason and occasionally make a good decision or three!
 Let me explain why I was recently accused of  "Acting Brand New"! After suffering thru and unbelievable working situation, I found my self damaged, bruised and often 2nd guessing my self. I had allowed myself to get caught up in fighting a non-winnable fight in exchange for irritation, job dissatisfaction and very negative thoughts! One day, I decided I was gonna control what I could control and not worry about the rest. I started each new day by reading something encouraging and loving that got me feeling some kind of positive way. I brought friends doughnuts to co-workers and sent out occasional words of inspiration in emails when I found something good! I said I am gonna look at at least 10 people in the eye and smile or give them a compliment. What happened even surprised me!I stopped worrying about me and started try to help others anyway I could and I felt good about seeing others pay it forward.
The same people who held me down were no longer viewed as the enemy, rather staff who had similar things in common with me (working for same company, trying to do a good job, etc) who just didn't get to know me yet. Sure, people had/have negative images of me and my work family but I began to wonder less about that and ponder more about what was I doing personally to encourage them to have those views of me in the first dawg gone place. Intelligent business managers comprehend that employees stay because they 1) either love the job or 2)can't find nothing else. Its not rocket Science people. So, when the management team starts to rub staff the wrong way and the staff keeps on taking it: then the management team don't have a problem (they cool with putting that thumb screw on your neck) with the situation, because that is all on the person who is knocked on the ground looking up with at that syde eye talking bout "Give us Free".
Back to me being brand new.......I realized that if people don't know you, then its easier for them to type cast you and not get to know you. Apparently that makes one brand new, if thru research and communication you understand someone else's decision making choices. Doesn't mean you have to agree with it, but at the very least,you know why they did what they did. Ironically, the oppressor may see you differently also too. But what if too much damage has been done for you to ever get to this point? Perhaps a deep look inside your soul may reveal that all of the other players in the game have either moved up or moved on and yet the problem is still there?  Could the problem be you? Why should you get a fee pass on all of the pain and suffering that those before and after you have known since the beginning of time? Distress is all part of it sucka. Ain't nobody singled you out  "just because". I recall reading about the great gangsters of the past like Al Capone, Two Gun Crowley and Dutch Schultz, they all said they was good people, who never did nothing wrong, lol!!! Some may beg to differ, especially when you kill so many people.  Wardy says: "what if you could ban the feelings of being unfairly targeted that often accompanies misfortune, then you  remove an entire layer of emotional baggage that you really didn't need as much as you thought. The world is bigger than what ever we face on a silly job: because work is what we do for $$$, and not who we are as a people. I think that how information is disseminated strikes a nerve sometimes so hard, we may never get over it, but doing the same thing over and over again and expecting a different result is the very definition of INSANITY! So, if I am acting brand new because I refuse to act less than, because of a stereo type , then so be it. In closing, I often say Will Smith is one heck of actor, but keep in mind.....The man is acting......... and he is definitely winning. (u figure that one out on your own)
I am Ward.....